honestly, i really do need a girl
i miss her a lot.
i really do miss her a lot. we used to talk so much, buddies all the way. i hope she feels the same way…
they can hear me, but they don’t address me.
i would give my life for them, but i can’t say they would do the same for me. i’m pretty sure they won’t miss me anyway.
prom was awesome, enough said.
on the dance floor, the night with a beautiful girl is just too awesome to just put into words. you had to experience it in order to feel the rush. couldn’t help but smile with my date, it’s just impossible not to. in the end, it was worth the money and planning, and it is something i will never forget.
in the end, i planned to do it, temptations were beeping off the chart, but i had to keep my commitment; a commitment to myself and my brother. ”fuck it, it’s senior year. there are no rules!” i’m just not that person. sigh, maybe it’s for the better. oh well, i hope she had a memorable time because that was what i was aiming for.
forever in our hearts
it’s almost time. tomorrow’s the day that marks a full year of you being away. all those memories we had, all those times we spent together…although they are distant through time, they are still within my mind. you are something, let me tell you that. you, out of all the people i have met, have changed me, and not just me, but everyone. i mean, since when do we get to meet an awesome douchebag who is good at everything he does? from the first time we met in middle school, to the last days we spent together in high school, we all cherished those moments together, not as friends, but as family.
when you passed, all of us were down, crushed by your passing. it was unexpected, the most unexpected thing and then, you were gone. things just don’t happen like that. that day when we all came to school, tears, hugs, support, everyone was devastated. your friends, the teachers, and your family, oh my goodness, i can’t imagine what it was like for your family. the greatest son, suddenly gone from their world. from the child they raised to be one of the most successful debaters in the country…gone. mr. richards, none of us could’ve felt more pain than him. he lost one of hist best debaters, and your partner, he too felt more pain than all of us.
a friend, a brother, you were everything to us. you were the one who brought us together, the one who gave us happiness in our time of need, hell you were the one who always made everyone laugh, that was your best quality. but without you…things aren’t the same. we still have each other, but it’s like a whole different world without you. your presence is what made us whole, together as a family. but with you gone…it’s something we can’t fully achieve because you’re not here with us.
you were an inspiration, a prodigy like no other. your influence on us has made us into better people. you are truly a friend and a brother shashwat. i wish i can tell you this in person, all of us wish this, that we can tell you how much you meant to us…but this is all we can do at the moment.
i hope you already know, that i don’t call you “brother” because it sounds cool. in the end, we all still love you, and we miss you brother.
R.I.P. Shashwat Sharma.
